
Balcony on Quellenstrasse in Kriens, Switzerland // Photo: Anna Rosenthal, 03/2007

St. Bartholomew’s Church on Park Ave, Manhattan. (Photo source)
I am walking the streets with more confidence with every day passing. I am discovering new places. I walked into the St. Bartholomew’s Church on Park Avenue, across the street from my boyfriends office building, today. It was dim lit and the moment I walked in I felt no unnatural sound anymore. It was quiet and peaceful. I closed my eyes and walked down to the altar. Nobody was in there, I was all by myself – I almost wrote that I was all alone, but I was not alone, I was just by myself. That is maybe something different, at least I am telling myself that it is something different. I sat down on the 6th bench and tried to feel something. For thirty minutes of time I tried to clear my head and fill it with only positive thoughts and some lavender smells (try to think really hard about how great lavender smells and take a few deep breaths, makes the headache go away and I like dreaming after all). I prayed and cried for maybe two minutes and felt better. I gained some strength for the day and felt really, really good! I could not believe I was in Midtown Manhattan. I didn’t want to believe that this place had such great impact on me and my feelings. I wanted to stay in that moment forever. I found rest at last.
If you should ever hang out near Park Ave. and 50th St., go inside St. Barts and sit down and take a deep breath, and forget about the world that you live in.

China Crisis is an awesome band. They might be even my favorite band. Gary Daly and Eddie Lundon got together when they were like 17 years old - and they STILL play music together now, 30 years later. Sometimes I hit myself in the head, whenever I discover bands that are around for so long already, yet still undiscovered by me. But maybe this is the right time for me to fall in love with Gary Daly. Best dressed man ever. You can see very clearly in those two videos:
That haircut was a mistake, but by far the best song:
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